Life has taken a somewhat… interesting turn. For better or for worse, I can’t really tell right now.
Some news in life is in order, I suppose. As I’ve been terribly inconsistent in my posting frequency.
I’m single again (surprise surprise). Only this time, I didn’t fuck shit up. (Surprise for real this time.) I think I’ve grown to be someone who is better able to handle these relationship ordeals. Breakups, eh, I could still use a lot of work.
The scenario was, I met a girl, got together with girl. Things are great. Out of fucking nowhere they’re bad. She proposes a break. I fight the break, eventually give in. Get fed up with the break, tell her it’s all or nothing. She goes with nothing. Changes her mind, and comes back crying to me (literally). We enjoy a relationship for a few days, and out of fucking nowhere again, things are bad. Apparently, her ex came back into the picture, got her self all confused. This guy is an abusive asshole, cheats on her, and more unmentionables. And yet she’s confused because ‘she doesn’t know if she still has feelings for him’ (maybe she doesn’t know, but I do.) so we end up broken apart again. Yay! What the shit did I do in a past life to have such ridiculous love affairs. I mean, if I didn’t press her on it, we might still be together. But I’m sorry, I don’t do love circles. Of course, I feel like shit for a while, but I don’t feel too bad today, for some reason. I couldn’t tell you why I’m okay right now, but I am. If I may sound somewhat naive, that stupid facebook horoscope was dead on yet again. It always is. And not where it’s all vague and shit so that it applies, but it’s specific as fuck and gets me every time. I’m sure it’s all coincidental, but still. It says I’ll have to make an important decision today too that I’ll look back on the rest of my life, but it’s getting towards the end of the day, so I don’t think that’s going to happen.
Also, started working for ChaCha not too long ago. It’s ridiculous, but it brings in money, so I’m not one to complain.
Today, I’ll take advantage of this good mood, and just relax. I’m single, looking (but not quite ready to jump on anything yet, really). Seems to be the most logical thing to do, anyway.
I’m loving my nintendo 64 I got not long ago, as a side note. And I’ve been on a roll with making music. I will say this, if a failing or failed relationship brings one good thing for me, it’s a muse. When I’m depressed and frustrated, I can make magic.
This post is getting really unorganized and topic hopping, so I’ll cut off for now. Peace